Happy Monday my loves…
I have a very bad internet provider – SmartBro. Today, opening a single web page takes forever. In fact, I can already finish all my mommy duties and still the page is not even halfway from loading. Anyway, it is somehow a blessing in disguise because it gives me time to write a post.
Lately, I have been complaining about my super dooper heavy weight. I am 20 pounds over my weight 10 years ago. I know it is a very long time already but still I couldn’t believe I allowed myself to be this heavy. Don’t get me wrong, I am not against anyone who is above their average weight. My disappointment is merely personal.
The truth is I really wanted to lose weight. But somehow “weight” has its special way of finding me…all the time…I mean I can’t get away. When I decide to eat less, it’s usually the time when my appetite is too strong. When I decide to exercise, it is usually the time when I feel so lazy. When I decide to follow a certain diet regimen, it is usually the time when I want to binge. It seems like there is no perfect time.
On one hand, I want to lose weight but on my other hand, I am carrying all the foods that I love to eat — talk about balance!
Just now, I am seriously thinking about the reason why I can’t seem to lose even a pound of my unwanted curves. And then it boils to me that I lack willpower. I can’t stick to what I am doing. I am not always hungry. My stomach doesn’t always call for food but my mouth is always in need.
It is really depressing to see that your clothes don’t fit you anymore. Or when you want to buy clothes but you know they won’t look good on you because you have plenty of curves and they are all out of place.
Each day I would say that it will be the start of a new healthy and fit life for me. But I do this every day. Each day remains a start and so far, there had been no second day of healthy lifestyle for me yet.
Oh, my sentiments about weight loss can go on and on but I won’t bore you my loves of all my disappointments.
Anyway, I will start a healthy lifestyle tomorrow…hopefully :) I will give you an update, if ever there will be.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20
Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body.